Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Round Two

I have another blog, but it's just for the time I was in Brazil for a study abroad program last summer term. I'm sitting in my sociology 300 class right now and I am so bored, so I figured I'd start it up again. I've always liked writing and I can't quite focus on homework right now....so why not?

This class goes from 5:15-7:45. Goodness gracious. My Tuesday's are pretty long this semester. All well.

I'm afraid of falling into the trap of getting so comfortable writing here as to write about personal things that I don't really want others to know...I'll just try to remember to write those things down in my journal.

I did talk online to Cade for a bit, which killed some time. I really do like talking to him, all though he can really frustrate me. Maybe I should change names? Nah I don't think anyone will be able to find this, and if some random person does stumble across this, they won't know who these people I mention are. Let me try and google this real fast and see what comes up...a couple other Lauren Cummings and their blogs come up, but not mine.

Well, life since coming back from Brazil has been pretty good. I feel like I'm a lot different this school year than I was my freshman or sophomore year, but I don't think Brazil is all that responsible. Maybe I'm just maturing...finally...haha. This semester has been so busy for me, but it's also the least social. I have my close friends, and I do things with them, but I don't feel this need to always be visiting or socializing with other people. That was a main construct of my first two years at college. Maybe I'm just more sure of myself and so I'm content with my close friends now. I don't know.

I'm definitely not dating anyone right now, but the weird thing is that I'm ok with that. I used to always have five thousand little crushes, but right it's no one. There are a couple guys in my ward that are acting interested, but I'm almost disgusted by their attention. I can't figure out why. I think I just need a break from dating. It takes so much effort and time and I just feel wiped out. It's been a little draining.

Right now I'm just trying to figure out what to do with my life. The two big considerations are mission and grad school. I want to eventually do something with ESR, economic self-reliance, and I heard tale there was a grad program for that here at BYU, but I'm not exactly sure.

Oh dear. I better go do my stats reading right now so I can do other homework when I get home.